unbelievable

adrienne shelly was one of my role models. so unique and vivacious and talented. rip.

this is me STILL trying to look her:

that october feeling

Why is October always the most wistful month of the year? Is it the drama of the changing atmosphere  - the wind and falling leaves, the ochre daylight, the crepuscular hours getting  dimmer and cooler...the shorter days?  And Halloween! It's all so cinematic! I always feel nostalgic, daydreamy, unfocused and adolescent in October. Thoughts of schooldays and childhood gone by, past romances (heartaches and sweet memories), travels taken and the longing for more fill my mind whilst endless cups of tea are consumed and i dig through old mixtapes and photos.  Also...I just read The Perks of Being a Wallflower (liked it) and watched Series 1 & 2 of Awkward (loved it) and rewatched all the original Degrassi Jr. High & Degrassi High episodes (1987-1991) so nostalgia  for "firsts" and  drama are abounding!!

I'm sinking into the wistfulness! Here I go with the remembrances....

Reminds me of the heartache of the one that got away not so very long ago
(though thankfully i caught the right one later ♥).

Most immense celeb crush of my life - River Jude Phoenix.

 

Sarah Record bands are emo pop at its most unironic, lyrical, catchy, loveliest!

 

First perfume I wore (still do sometimes).

I miss checking out books from the library and using the card catalog. OMG this booked rocked my jr. high years.

Haven't been there for years, but many late hours were spent drinking endless cups of coffee and waxing philosophical at this establishment during high school & college.

desk daydreaming...

make me happy...

Travel, holidays, family & friends. Must get healthy for these very crucial and rad reeasons <3

must get under control:
Sleep
Lose weight
Headaches
Stress
Money
Ambition

I just want a lovely and tranquil life. Please & thank you!

mmm...music

I started drifting to a different place

I realized I was falling off the face of your world

And there was nothing left to bring me back

I'm a million miles away
A million miles away
A million miles away
And there's nothing left to bring me back today