oh yes, it's '80s night & the feelin's right!

i had a wisdom tooth yanked out today. i feel so loopy & pouty (in a vicodin cloud - yawn). it scared me so much beforehand that my legs went completely wonky and twitchy. i really scared myself. feeling better now, but need a little t.l.c.

of course i'm once again having a movie night (any excuse, right). this weekend is pretty in pink, fame (1980), amadeus & desperately seeking susan! so now i'm cuddled up on the couch with my tea and blanket, (sent the boy out to the bars so i can be swollen without the embarrass) and waiting for my kitty-love. Suki! Strawberries! Get in here!

*Also....I have an interview on Monday!!! Fingers crossed! I had to have my phone interview today with gauze in my mouth...ridiculous!

the dork side

A few job prospects! Hoorah! Nothing definite, but the possibility of hope has lifted my spirits. As well as letting myself embrace my monumental dorky & nostalgic tendencies. Now that October is over (the month of the year when I need to feel hopelessly wistful and melancholy) I'm letting myself do what I need to do to feel better in the moment (read: wine, crap movies, sleeping in). Obviously, as I'm unemployed, just had a root canal, and have to have my wisdom teeth out in a couple weeks (fingers crossed this will finally put a stop to eating altogether) I think this is okay...prescriptive even. But, yay...job prospects!!!

This weekend I went to Napa to see my darling friend, Ashley (had lunch at Oxbow Public Market). I had the most amazing Meyer Lemony Lemon cupcake!


I baked a cake for Jimmy; we watched the divine Big Trouble in Little China (which I'm writing a piece on for the film blog) & a truly painful movie from 1990 called, Lisa (which I, embarrassingly, used to watch at sleepovers). Oh, the cruelty of 15!


And I've been listening to the Grateful Dead -American Beauty (a rarity for me, but its reminding me of a beloved and long-lost mixtape from my early undergrad years).

Like I said...this weekend is dorky, low-key and comfortable ♥

getting laid (off)

i really wanted a new job...obviously on my own terms and not because the museum is going under. 60% of the staff gone. i'm gutted. we all are.

sigh. time to start over again (again).

what is all this sweet work worth -

i really don't know life at all.

this is me...but i really don't who who that is anymore.
mostly underachieving.

and dreaming ♥

and naive.

Both Sides Now - Joni Mitchell

But now old friends are acting strange they shake their heads, they say I've changed. Something's lost but something's gained in living every day. I've looked at life from both sides now, From win and lose, and still somehow, It's life's illusions i recall. I really don't know life at all.

S.O.S.

I'm in need of a meadow!

I'm desperate for a field of green, wet grass to lie back in and to stare at the sky...sun warming my arms & legs...and to listen to the quite.

grrrr.....