very okay

I don't want to forget the feeling from this week's presentation. Capable, professional, charming, successful....and a bit on fire, actually. I so easily forget to be proud of myself when occasion calls (there are so many other important and well, mostly wretched things to think about myself, right).

It's hard to keep faith - in one's self or anything that really matters, really. But, as I watch the homeless man twirl with abandon out the window across from the museum right now & listen to the v. loud overture that CJM (is for some reason) piping into the lane and maybe because I just ate a really weird quesadilla or because it’s Halloween - I just feel like everything is going to be okay. Whatever happens with him, London, the museum, the election...the state-of-things I suppose.

We'll all write new roles for ourselves.

iris effect

Everything is changing for me....focusing down like an iris tightening in a camera.

I want to get more from this...more than you....I think.

lovely

I have a sneaking suspicion that having a dad must be lovely.....

...especially if this cutie was your dadums.

I miss mine.

trust me

I don't need to tell... everything! I have never regretted not telling him something...unnecessary. I'm pretty much an open book.....wear my bleeding heart on my sleeve....so when I keep something to myself it's absolutely the rarity. SO - you should be thanking me!!!

Everyone has their personal rituals. And I need mine.

thanks for that

this week's delightfuls:

Metronomy Nights Out


criggo.wordpress.com


The It Crowd

san francisco treat - picture post!!

Ah...happiness. A De Young afternoon...just what I needed.

(museums that allow photography are my cuddle!)

well played October 2008 issues.

Um....all of my cuddles are on magazine covers this month. I'm gobsmacked by the lovely! I feel like the celebs I admire are usually inside-pages people not cover stories...so..hooray!

Now, just to blow my mind, maybe Robert Pattinson will show up on a cooking or a.m. show or possibly Sigur Ros will play on SNL or Haruki Murakami will show up on Oprah! The world is a crazy place....




Actually, Robert Pattinson is in Interview this month & Jarvis Cocker is too - WTF? - I'm in heaven!

how can they be tired of england.....

OMG! A real possibility of interning at the Design Museum in London?!?!! Maybe....possibly...a chance (slight or otherwise)...


fingers-crossed! fingers-crossed! fingers-crossed! fingers-crossed!

If it were not for hopes, the heart would break.
-- Thomas Fuller

the long (long) good weekend

So, working the Mill Valley Film Festival - I met Harry Dean Stanton who nearly ashed his cigarette on my shoe (god bless 'em). And the next night I introduced myself to Paul Schrader after his tribute....but what do say after "hi" to the man who wrote Taxi Driver.

So, you know, not a bad time.....one more festival week to go.

Oh! And......it was Love Parade/Love Fest this past weekend in the city too and I was quasi-humped by a Teletubby at the corner of Market St. and 4th! Oh, techno-geeks - je t'aime!

(and now school started yesterday......)

oh, san francisco

Last night as I was driving home from Mill Valley I was all sorts of stress-y about classes starting Monday, all the film festival shifts I'm working in the next few weeks, the museum colloquium I'm working the week after that and about all the issues with him and me and, I guess the appalling state of the world in general really. But then...driving across the Richmond Bridge I see the lights of San Francisco peek out from behind a hill and my heart just leaps up into my throat. The lights of the Bay Bridge across the Bay, the city illuminated at night, the silhouettes of dark islands just floating on top of the Bay and the ambient light reflecting off the water - they were so achingly lovely - my thoughts just melted off and slid away.

So then...Echo and the Bunnymen's Killing Moon comes on my iPod. Bloody perfect timing! Then every song that played on Shuffle mode (which generally disappoints me with it's careless juxtapositioning!) on my drive back to Alameda was per-fec-tion

New Order - Every Little Counts
Bowie - Sound and Vision
Michael Jackson - Rock With You
The Fix - Saved By Zero
The Album Leaf - The Outer Banks

And I have to admit, as much as I want to move to London - the Bay Area is one of the most lovely places anywhere and ever.