Salt Lake City is kind of amazing! the locals are down to earth and friendly  -- I'm a happy bay area tourist/conference attendee!

also they have dunkin donuts here! 

 which i am immensely enjoying in the bathtub!  i love hotels!

cris de coeur

i find i'm undefined.

the little things

vegas. 2 days no sleep. but then...a benefit trolley at the airport at 5am!

The Orange Bicycle - Hyacinth Threads - 1968

how am i just now discovering this band??

of course

it never ceases to amaze - the things men will say to seem like a nice guy.

don't be sweet and empty. sugary hollow words are not meaningful or pretty.

goodnight nobody

Where is the Hypnos? Where? Where?

catching up

Three Things:

I have totally broken out :(

I love Toast of London/Matt Barry

I am going to Palm Springs in 2 two weeks!

 

springing

feeling the season! trying to breathe easier and deeper! Last week Oscars, last night Gardens and Villa at the Independent...DVF exhibition in LA next week...birthday, Santa Cruz, Small Black show....

Trying not to think about how my job is going to take a 90 degree shift in 3 months!

Getting back to my vintage passion in a passionate way! I want to learn a craft - knitting, crochet, embroidery???

sometimes marriage is harder than i thought. not harder exactly, but hurtful. you think boys won't hurt your feelings anymore when you get married - but boys will always will boys - and i will always be a raw nerve with an anxiety disorder. and so that's that.

happy new year!

What are You Doing the Rest of Your Life - Michel Legrand

I can not believe how much I love this song.
It's perfect. Romantic. Sentimental, but not sappy. Mature, but unaffected. I cry every time.

XOXO,
Admiral Ridiculous

life's a beach....sometimes

i love cambria.

and harmony.

its hard to come home.....

the weekend indoors

lovely, gloomy day. 

perfect to catch up the the current uk series of downton & poirot.

i love Edith. there, I've said it!

jimmy, suki & me

this week has been pretty draining - hospital and dr's appts. but bed and suki and jimmy have gotten me through it. oh, and miss marple episodes :)

me

how long will we live on in other people's memories...

peepers

My eye has been twitching for 5 months!  I feel like I'm going mad.  

I've been to my general practitioner, an optometrist, an allergist, a head and neck specialist, and a neurologist. I'm trying to be strong but this is a bummer. A drag. Exhausting. Depressing.

The worst part...no mascara! 

Honestly, my eyelashes are spectacular - and now they are all washed out :(

autumn in the air

My favourite time of year is here. Wistful thoughts, Indian Summer, fall TV season, pumpkin flavoured coffee drinks, Halloween - I'm ready!

I put a little autumn in your drink
and your skin caught chill
and you wanted me
near
and you wanted me
to kiss you and you
tasted of early peaches
and pears and your hair moved
in the wind like fallen leaves
and I loved you
under the covers
in the long, long night.
                           - Peregrine

The year is winding down and I failed to do so many things personally - obviously lose 20 pounds, make a budget, reduce stress - get some bloody sleep! But, professionally I am feeling pretty amazing. Why can't I achieve at something without failing as well? It's irritating.

If you live near San Francisco go see Richard Diebenkorn: The Berkeley Years 1953-1966 at the De Young. It's amazing, haunting and peaceful. 

suuuuurprise!

I love my man - he searched exhaustively for this little slice of nostalgia for me. I'm not ashamed to admit this brought me not A LITTLE amount of joy (read:loads and loads and loads).

pop.

Today is Father's Day.
Me & my dad in 1975. 

I only had 4  1/2 years with him but I know he was madly loved by all and loved others deeply.

Plus, what a doll - he looked like Jemaine Clement ♥

unbelievable

adrienne shelly was one of my role models. so unique and vivacious and talented. rip.

this is me STILL trying to look her:

that october feeling

Why is October always the most wistful month of the year? Is it the drama of the changing atmosphere  - the wind and falling leaves, the ochre daylight, the crepuscular hours getting  dimmer and cooler...the shorter days?  And Halloween! It's all so cinematic! I always feel nostalgic, daydreamy, unfocused and adolescent in October. Thoughts of schooldays and childhood gone by, past romances (heartaches and sweet memories), travels taken and the longing for more fill my mind whilst endless cups of tea are consumed and i dig through old mixtapes and photos.  Also...I just read The Perks of Being a Wallflower (liked it) and watched Series 1 & 2 of Awkward (loved it) and rewatched all the original Degrassi Jr. High & Degrassi High episodes (1987-1991) so nostalgia  for "firsts" and  drama are abounding!!

I'm sinking into the wistfulness! Here I go with the remembrances....

Reminds me of the heartache of the one that got away not so very long ago
(though thankfully i caught the right one later ♥).

Most immense celeb crush of my life - River Jude Phoenix.

 

Sarah Record bands are emo pop at its most unironic, lyrical, catchy, loveliest!

 

First perfume I wore (still do sometimes).

I miss checking out books from the library and using the card catalog. OMG this booked rocked my jr. high years.

Haven't been there for years, but many late hours were spent drinking endless cups of coffee and waxing philosophical at this establishment during high school & college.